I'm changing for the better. Sadly, I still have bit and pieces of the old new, accidentally piecing themselves together. I threw my worries onto the floor, accidentally converting them into frustration, and I expressed them. Immediately after I released the unnecessary emotion, I worry again.

What have I done?

I punished myself for your sake, I pushed myself for you. Yet, I deny. I have released my frustrations due my recklessness.

Reflecting, I distanced myself from the clique, I need time, I need space, I need to cool down. Without a choice, I rejoined them afterwards, and put up my pretendious front yet again. How long can I keep this up? I can't, not anymore.

Spare me.